Memories of a Little Girl

Ok so I have decided life moves WAY too fast! I remember when I was a little girl the hours felt like days and the days felt like years. As I get older, time flies faster and faster. Sometimes I wish I could slow time down so I could enjoy things longer. That is one of the oh so many reasons why I love photography so much! Pictures capture moments and feelings of life forever! When I look at some of my older pictures, I not only remember that moment in specific, but I feel like I can relive it all over again. So much has happened since the beginning of the year! Switched boyfriends a couple of times and went on way too many dates, hence why I believe I shall forever be single haha. Oh well... I don't regret any of the mistakes I have made. They have made me stronger and I know they have made me a better person from inside and out. After the summer break I changed my major from Neuroscience to International Relations, because while visiting my parents in Spain I realized that my dreams and goals had changed. I came to the conclusion that I loved the medical field and that it will forever be part of me, because I am a Medical Assistant after all haha, but I don't want to become a doctor anymore. I just didn't see it working out in my future anymore. I speak almost 4 languages and love being around people. International Relations is my dream! Since the beginning of the fall semester I have discovered a love for economics and that is kind of weird, because it is not an easy subject. Econ just totally makes sense in my head! Yes I shall forever be a nerd that loves math and the smell of rain lol. So far I have done 3 pageants and seen that I can achieve anything I set my mind to. The whole pageant/model world is a totally different story than what I had expected, but I am grateful I have learned so many new things. I have made so many cool new friends and become a so much more passionate woman. I am proud of my latin/european culture. I feel more secure of myself and capable of anything and everything!! This summer I not only got to visit my beautiful parents in Spain, but I also was blessed with the amazing opportunity to go see my grandparents in Holland. The last time I saw them was when I was 16, so it was amazing to talk to them after 6 year. Love my opa and oma! They are both such an amazing example to me and I am so happy they are both still alive. After I got home from Spain I was given the opportunity to go to Fiji for a week with the Porter girls (Alyson and Connie. Love them!). If you have never been to Fiji, I totally recommend it. That place changed my life in so many ways! I fell in love with the people and the culture. Not to even mention the beautiful beaches and amazing food! We got to help some villagers by building water supplies. It was amazing to see how hard working and humble those people are. I was able to forget about my own problems 100% and focus on serving others. Anyways... It is almost halloween again. No idea what I am dressing up as, but I will figure it out lol. Got to celebrate canadian thanksgiving and listen to conference last weekend. Can't believe girls can go on a mission when they are 19 now. Crazy!! So happy to have the gospel in my life! Don't know where I would be without it to be honest. I love my family and miss them so much! Can't wait to see them in December! Always remember that life is not easy, but it sure is beautiful! Totally worth living, so enjoy every second of it!

2012 and Its Resolutions

So often when New Years comes around we think about what we have done with ourselves in the past 12 months, the lessons we have learned, the memories we have made and most of all the mistakes we made. I feel like by the time thanksgiving and christmas come around we have 1) eaten so much food and 2) spend so much money that we feel guilty, so we embark on a journey of self improvement. We think about the things we want to change and the things we want to stay the same. At least I do!

This past couple of weeks I was reminded of the fact that families are the most important thing EVER. Life is beautiful and I am so grateful for the wonderful parents I have. They might not be perfect people, but lets face it... We all have flaws that we would like to make magically disappear. They helped me realize that most of the time the right decisions are the hardest ones to make.

When it comes to school... yesterday I had so much anxiety about it that I ate 6 cinnamon rolls and drank a whole liter of diet coke all by myself haha. Somehow I always get myself all worked up before the semester starts. I have 16 credits full of anatomy, biology, chemistry and english, so I have mixed feelings about it. I am super excited to get some of those classes out of the way. I know I will learn a ton, but it will definitely not be easy cause all the good things in life never are.

What do I want for this year??

- First of all I want to be happy :)
- I want to love and be loved. "The greatest thing you'll ever learn is to love and be loved in return" -moulin rouge.
- I want to get good grades so I need to work my butt off. I am so close to finishing my degree, yet still so far away.
- Pay off my car.
- Work, work, work, cause someone's gotta pay the bills!
- Go to Spain! I have been craving paella and napolitanas de chocolate. Also its about time I see the beach and my family again.

So yeah for now I have simple goals, nothing too difficult or too fancy. Often though I find that the smallest and simplest things in life are the ones we find harder to remember. I know it will be a great year... I can feel it in my fingers and I can feel it in my toes (Love is all around by Reg Presley) :).